Lady-Blue-Rose

Its Okay to Not Be Okay

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Unnamed - Chapter One (Edit) by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Unnamed - Chapter One (Edit)

~*~ Gwenhyfar ~*~ It is said that once upon a time the Duine were touched by magic, causing great changes in who and what they once were. It is said that this magic lives in their veins, a magic that they can manipulate but have long forgotten how as their knowledge was lost. History says a lot of things, half of it rooted in mythology and the other half complete lies. Sprinkled amongst it all is the truth but figuring out what that truth is, well that is anyone’s question and in my current circumstances, I really have no available literature to make a better guess at what is fact and what is fiction. I also had nothing to distract myself so my mind was supplying the entertainment. They kept us in a room with walls made of the finest, and strongest, Torrigan Glass. Four walls of glass that kept us prisoner, allowed us to be on display to all the clients that may be in the market for the type of product that was being sold; Duines. The enchantment on the glass prevented us

Unnamed Edit? by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Unnamed Edit?

So what started out as a cute little love story is turning into a love story with a lot of world building and (hopefully) character development. At first, I did not have a solid idea of who Rauiri was, Gwenhyfar was more flushed out to begin with, BUT, I am not happy with how either of them have been represented so far in the story. I do not think I have been conveying what I want to convey in the right way. I do not want to hit my readers over the head with explanations on everything. And I would like to give our two main characters more distinct voices from each other. Since we're inside their heads I want to give more of their personality through internal thoughts and feelings. What goes on in my head and what happens in person are two (or more) very different things. Therefore, I wanted to ask how you guys would feel if I took some time to edit the previous chapters and reupload them. Would it be worth the time and effort? And would you be interested in basically

Unnamed - Chapter Nineteen by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Unnamed - Chapter Nineteen

~*~ Ruairi ~*~ “More cold river water huh?” Bunny was being sarcastic to work through the nausea she was feeling. “Blood. Be easy to track us.” I motioned to her, and she was wearing plenty of blood. “Most of it’s not mine.” “Which, I am thankful for.” She was right that the water’s temperature was cold. I began to quickly wash myself off to get rid of as much blood as possible. “What was that?” “My guess? Demon,” she was peeling off the clothing she had been sleeping in. “That’s not what… why are you undressing?” I had too many questions to ask but seeing her nearly naked body dip into the cold water might have undone some of my senses. “Washing. I was only wearing an undershirt and bloomers, we can chuck them off somewhere for a false scent trail.” “You hadn’t wanted me to see you naked before,” I turned away, mostly to hide how red I am sure my cheeks were. “And I originally was not asking about… whatever made you bring up demons. I wish we could travel

Unnamed - Chapter Eighteen by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

Unnamed - Chapter Seventeen by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Unnamed - Chapter Seventeen

~*~ Gwenhyfar ~*~ He was chuckling at me, “Why are you being shy?” “Because you are getting undressed!” “I am keeping a wrap around my waist, I promise I am not showing anything.” “And I promise I am keeping my back to you.” “I am worried, I think this tub is too big for you to bathe in safely.” I waved my hand, despite the fact he probably could not see it, “I will be fine. No need to worry about me. I can use a cloth and the basin to give myself a wash.” “You could… join me…” his voice sounded funny. I turned to look at the big male who had his back to me in the tub, but I could see the tips of his pointed ears were flushed. Wait… was he embarrassed? He’s the one who asked! That...was actually cute. I giggled a little as I looked away. It was also cute how he really did not fit into such a large tub that was clearly meant for Loachmor guests. I am not sure how I could find someone so large to be cute… but then I guess bears are cute in their huge and deadly

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Unnamed - Chapter Sixteen

~*~ Ruairi ~*~ The new clothing I received was more tight then I liked it to be and sadly spending so much time in the water made my pants shrink. It was an uncomfortable situation for me on the walk but one that I would simply endure until I can purchase clothing tomorrow. For now I would enjoy a night in the inn where I could enjoy a bath and a bed. My body ached so much, probably from the lack of sleep I was getting and the constant moving since that night... “These small towns must not like tall doors,” I nearly whacked my head on the top of the door frame… again. “I know I’ve asked you to keep quiet but… would it be acceptable for me to ask questions?” She looked at me with a blank look, batting those lush lashes with each blink. Bunny nodded slowly before she walked over to the door and began looking at the frame. Before I could ask what she was doing she sliced her hand on something. She cupped her hand to keep the blood from trickling, but a few drops escaped as

Unnamed - Chapter Fifteen by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Unnamed - Chapter Fifteen

***I know this isn’t how I normally start my chapters but I do want to give a trigger warning that self-harm does occur in this chapter.*** ~*~ Gwenhyfar ~*~ I did not realize having an owner would be exhausting in this fashion. The big lug was conked out on the ground thanks to whatever drugs he was slipped. Unless he really did find a mate but I would assume he would become obsessive and not want to leave her… or him or them. Instead he ran away. That did not seem right at all. Jeez… how did a Loachmor know they found their mate again? This was one time being a Duine had an advantage; no heat cycles and no “predestined mate” out there. Imagine the stress of trying to find a mate when they could be anywhere in the wide world. That would be dangerous for Duine’s. Off searching for a mate when we are the prey. A puff of smoke rose from Rauiri’s mouth as he grumbled in his sleep. I felt the anger rise all over again, clenching my fist. If he really had been drugged

Unnamed - Fourteen by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Unnamed - Fourteen

~*~ Ruairi ~*~ The errand into town took far longer than I wanted it to. My female was right when she said to take a few coin, and she was right that I may gain some pity with the story I told. Apparently, it was somewhat common for thieves in the area to steal from unsuspecting travelers coming from the bigger city, having just bought a Duine. And this fact worried me all the more that I left her alone. Worse, it was dusk when the female Loachmor who had showed me such kindness mentioned this fact. The woman had been seated across from me as we had a small dinner. She leaves across the table, her heavy chest almost resting in her bowl of stew as she placed one of her hands on my arm. She had been smiles and winks since I met her but her outright flirtation at that point was hard to ignore. She helped me because she desired me. And I used that desire to get more help. It was wrong for me to do, to use her in that way to play with her emotions. There is no excuse for my

Unnamed - Chapter Thirteen by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Unnamed - Chapter Thirteen

~*~ Gwenhyfar ~*~ Collecting the coins that Rauiri stashed away went more smoothly than I thought it would. But, I could smell the smoke in the air - the city was probably still burning. I wanted to argue that my owner was being too paranoid and cautious as he waded into waist deep water of a nearby river. His waist deep, he insisted I sit upon his shoulder as he walked. He also insisted that we remain quiet until we were further away because the water carried sound too easily. It was not long down the stream that he asked for me to change position, thus I was now seated behind his head with my legs on either side of his neck. In truth, it did leave his hands more free and I was not stressed at trying to stay balanced on his shoulder. My boredom got the better of me in too short of a time…I let my fingers run through my owner’s hair. It was as soft as it looked, such beautiful shining hair. I started to put braids in his hair. Letting them slowly unravel as he walked.

Unnamed - Chapter Twelve by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Unnamed - Chapter Twelve

~*~ Gwenhyfar ~*~ “Stop.” I was patting the chest of the Giant man carrying me, almost smacking as I tried to get his attention to listen to me. I am thankful that he got us out of town without further problem but he started to sprint as soon as it was clear and safe enough to do so. Being carried while someone runs is nauseating. I had my eyes closed to try and help but I really felt the need to be sick. Also, the dumbass carrying me needed medical treatment. He was moving like he hadn’t been stabbed in the side during his little brawl. I gave a good solid thump with the palm of his hand which caused a sudden stop. Oh by the skies and seas… I’m going to be sick. “Putmedownputmedown,” I begged at him and he did so, I stumbled over to a nearby tree, using it as support as I took deep breaths. I don’t want to puke. I don’t want to puke. I was trying very hard to keep everything down. “I was looking for shelter,” his voice was a soft mumble with a strange tone to it.

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Unnamed - Chapter One (Edit) by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Unnamed - Chapter One (Edit)

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Tiny Shoes by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Tiny Shoes

There is a little man, so small his shoes, which are too big for him, both fit on a penny. With room to spare. He knew this, because his stool was made of a stack of pennies that he had found here and there, that no one missed. The hardest part was getting them home, a penny is very heavy for someone so tiny. Nevertheless got them home he did, as he had with almost all the things in his house. After all, things in his size were not purchased at a store, so he made what he needed himself. Especially as there were no stores for people his size. That would be silly, people only two inches tall! He had never heard of such a thing! Well, besides

Life Gone By by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Life Gone By

Padding down threadbare corridors, Sun bleached colors having seen their share Of those that have come and gone. Muffled sounds from somewhere not clear, Quietness is far more near and deafening Ceilings closing in, that once soared. Grandeur has decayed, But stayed have the spirits. Ghosts from the past, Present ghosts rest, Ghosts yet to come. Some may think, The spirit that wanders, Is me.

Me by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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Me

I am the water that dances from the sky, Washing away the world for the new. I am the soil that stands below bare feet, That refreshes the idea of where we come from. I am the fire that fuels the soul, At times only embers, others a blaze. I am the air that breathes life, With wind that supports the individual. I am the sword that defends, For words can cut and heal. I am the spirit that wanders, Within a physical body. I am the vessel that beats blood red, But breaks like ice.

A Line on a Board in Poetry Class by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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A Line on a Board in Poetry Class

He made a line on the blackboard One Bold stroke from right to left Diagonally downward And stood back to ask Looking as always at no one in Particular “What have I done?” Silence Filled the room The only sounds came from The soft shuffle of Prof. Markus’s shoes As he paced back and forth With no particular Direction Waiting for an answer From a silent class of eleven It seemed we were all In a confusion As to what our teacher wanted Not wanting to give a wrong Answer With both tentativeness and validation Kristin declared “A division of people,” She went on less sure, “You split The room into two.R

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I Want by Lady-Blue-Rose, literature

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I Want

I want him to pay, he made the choice, he had to have his way, Now, its time to hear my voice. I want them all to pay, their bill is due, they no longer should have a say, Its time to hear something new. I want to watch him squirm, for what he has done, I want to see him as a worm, for he is one. I want a world that is new, Without people like him. I want it better for all, Not a few. Let them Begin anew too.

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Mar 31
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Deviant for 15 years
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* Asexual

* Panromantic

* Sex-Repulsed (in real life)

* Smut Loving (bring on the stories)

* Role Player

* Should be working but is distracted by that

I feel like being a bit philosophical so this is what I have to say. All emotions are good emotions. We have to feel angry sometimes. We have to feel sad. We cannot always feel happy. The body likes balance. The problem is when emotions become dysfunctional. Anger is fine, being angry all the time and attacking people (physically/emotionally/mentally) is not okay. Being sad is good for you, but laying in bed for a year while hardly taking care of yourself is not good (it is also not technically sadness but more likely a symptom of depression. Depression and sadness really aren't the same thing).

If someone tells you to "be happy" or "stop *emotion* ", it may mean you need to reevaluate your mental health but it could also mean they are a twat and its okay to not be okay but they have not accepted this.

Self-care sometimes means telling toxic people to GTFO but also working to recognize when you are being toxic.

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Lady-Blue-Rose

Nov 12, 2022

Hey G/T fandom; are there any good Discords to join?#GT #Giant #Tiny #G/T

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Lady-Blue-Rose

Apr 9, 2021

Seems Anime has greatly influenced me on Rauiri. Part Ogre God from Kakuriyo and part Takeo from My Love Story! I’m trying to keep track.

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KittySib

Jun 21, 2021

Thank you for faving!

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Oct 13, 2019

Thank you for the fav :>

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Mar 12, 2019

Thank you for the watch <3

VellowFellow

Edited Feb 22, 2018

I was originally only going to thank you for the fav, then I read what you wrote about the organ donor part and god's will, then the part about you writing that you are not okay. I know I'm only a stranger on the internet, but I really wish I could take some of your pain away. I can't even tell you it's going to hurt less in time because it's probably always going to hurt in the back of your mind. I'm so sorry for your loss, I wish I had something inspirational to write but I don't... :/

Edit, I do know it's from 2017 x__x but I was still sad reading those journal entries...

Lady-Blue-Rose

Feb 22, 2018

Thank you for the kindness. Truth be told, kindness and empathy are the best ways to handle someone in pain.

It may be from 2017, but you are right, it still hurts so much and there are many who expect someone to be “over it” by now.

Thank you for taking the time to read, that in itself is a kindness. To look at a stranger and see them.

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Jun 18, 2017

Thanks for the

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Apr 9, 2017

Thanks for the favs!